True to my core.

I am not myself lately.

As if moving to this side of the world has clipped my otherwise straightforward tongue, and cut my free spirited self.

Instead of expanding my territory, the world has become very small.

Fact remains. This is not my home. This is not the place where I belong.

Temporary. This is temporary. I will not succumb to death of the sprit. I will rise up and dare to remain true to my core.

#sohelpmegod

More than Forever

Allow me to recount my past love only this time. Not out of bitterness, but as a testimony of how God loved me.

I have been told six years ago, by the person whom I called my great love then that I am not worth a marriage. He didn't love me enough to make it to forever. My 21 year old self was shattered. Eventually, I found out that Forever, to that boy, is his ex-girlfriend. And he loved me less than forever.

Back then, I was still re-establishing my relationship with the Creator. I have been crying out loud to Him always of the pains and the injustice my love life has given me to the point of questioning Him of His plans for me. Despite my being stubborn,  He has never failed to sustain me. He made me whole again.

When I learned to surrender, I prayed for Him to give me a man after His heart in His perfect timing. I prayed for a guy to love me more than forever as I prayed to be the woman worth that love. I prayed for healing too and of course the grace to forgive myself and the boy who broke my heart.

Today, I am God's testimony of His faithfulness. In a year's time, I will marry the man He has prepared for me. Amazing. I am overwhelmed with the mixed of emotions I am feeling all at the same time. One year to go and I will be a Mrs. The wait may seem long, but I am taking the remaining days of being single, to preparing myself for the new role God has entrusted me. Thank You Lord for my more than Forever. You rock.

 

When Tets met Simplicity

One fine evening, I came across a sister's blog. It is about her journey to live simply. I felt right then and there that it was the answer to one of the many questions I have in mind. And so, like her, I decided to embrace the challenge. Not that I am even living a lavish lifestyle. Probably because there is too much that I wanted to do and wanted to become (all at the same time). I reckon that breaking down my desires into what truly matters will make the difference.

I am excited to learn again. Thanks Sis. Leslie for the resources. I know that I can always be better that what I am now. I know too that I am  not even close to knowing the full concept of this new journey. And so the studying begins.

Let me share though my first guidelines (source: Ruth Soukop and her Project Simplify). You think it's easy? Think again. I don't even make my bed daily! Yeah, shamefully.

Here's to becoming simple and better! To a new Me.

So help me God.