Once, somebody texted me just to ask what I think, is a make or break question for any SFC member.
"Sister, what makes you continue to serve in SFC after all these years."
Isang simpleng tanong pero nakakabagabag.
I remember praying before sending him my answer. In fact, the answer I sent him took me back to the six years of serving in Singles for Christ.
I may not be able to write the exact words now but I said something like these:
* I rebuilt my personal relationship with God because of this community. My service is not because I love just the community, but more of an expression of how I love Him. Sabi ko sa Kanya, kahit san Niya ko dalhin, magseserve ako. I guess dito Nya kasi ko dinala for now. So nagsusumikap ako for Him.
* Hindi perfect ang community bro... Pag tao ang titingnan mo, mapapagod ka, mauubos ang pasensya mo, masasaktan ka. So draw your strength from the real Source of love, kasi makikita mo na lang, hindi ka pala nauubusan kasi pupunan Niya yun lagi. You cannot give what you don't have bro. And if you have the overflowing love of God, it will be natural to share the love to others. So fix your eyes on Him. :)
Hopefully, God touched his heart. Happy to be used for His glory.
Hindi naman ako perpekto. Marami rin akong ayaw sa community, ayaw na tao.. ayaw na kultura. Maraming beses na kong nasaktan ng community na mahal na mahal ko. Pero di ba ganun naman? Pag mahal mo, madali patawarin? Pag mahal mo go lang ng go? Buti na lang maaga kong natutunan, "The community, the church, is a hospital for sinners." Lahat tayo may swero pa... so tuloy tuloy lang. Go go lang unti we recover di ba? Basta ang driving force lang lagi si God at hindi kung sino man dyan. Take it one day at a time.
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Dear Lord,
What is your message for me at work? Help me glorify You through my job. Love and hate relationship naman kasi talaga yung nangyayari sa kin pagdating sa trabaho. Grabedad. Inspire me Lord please?
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How do I save the world? Or at least her world?
Pano mo tutulungan ang taong ayaw tulungan ever sarili nya? Puro excuses, walang ginagawa. Pano mo tutulungan yung taong, naalala ka lang pag gipit na gipit na siya? Pano mo tutulungan ang tao kung asar na asar ka sa kanya?
Lord, how do I love my neighbors again? :)
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Today, I think, I will be a forever girlfriend.
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Hmm.. how I wish I can not multi task. But then again, multi tasking is a rare gift. And Ive mastered it already.
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Sa gitna ng habagat nagsilabasan ang mga bayani. Nasukat ang tibay ng Pinoy. Nalaman rin ang mga buwaya, plastik at nagbabakat kayo. San ka dun? Mas importante ata, san ako dun?
Sana dalawin na ko ng antok.
